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Sunday, June 01, 2008 @ 7:45 PM
No Acquiesce

i am quite certain i do not get overwhelmed by the rash emotion 'anger' as much as most other normal people do. as to whether that is a cause for concern is not so much the issue now. i get over 'anger' immediately, right after the consequences of throwing it around is played through my mind like a scene from a film. many argue it's supposed to make you feel better, but it's more than about me.

instead, i feel 'sad'. or disappointed disheartened dashed dismayed. right now im not sure myself if how i feel is an under-reaction or an over-reaction. at fault may be my consistent indifference to my surroundings and BIG LIFE ISSUES that i only pay detailed attention to the smaller matters in our everyday lives. people want cars money houses status power. i want to just live...or at least drift for now, since at 20 you cant really admit that you're living.

but really, i am not angry; just a bit frustrated. by the time you've read till here, I'll be Eric again.