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Wednesday, November 30, 2005 @ 10:25 AM
1/2 holiday

a month off the holidays and i'm behaving like they're going to stretch for eternity. A's? What A's? the only A's that i know of are those which fill up my bowl of breakfast cereal. (first, i'm referring to the alphabets cereal. second, i realise i don't eat cereal). despite the endless reality checks from my parents who check on reality themselves daily, i'm still in a world of my own, a dimension created based on my demands and desires. sadly at an age where you're confined within 4 walls and a ceiling 5 days a week with 6 subjects to content yourself with, you'd only wish you had 7 days of the week off. also, when you're 17, the most complex of matters that you'll encounter are either that of a math problem on an assessment paper or what dish to order at the veg rice stall. ok, make that when you're 17 and have Li ZhengRong Eric on your birth certificate. still, you cant rule out choosing a dish for your meal as a complex matter.

17.5 years old and still a virgin, i still do not give a damn what i'm gonna do in the future. while there are some who have already thought of what to ink on their will, i'm still in th stage of dilemna. to study or to play. simple? i doubt so. to this day, i'm unable to strike a balance btw the two, and despite the obvious cons and pros of the two, the heart cant tell the mind what to do. logical reasoning simply plays out sinful desires. simply put, darkness prevails and so does my undying love for anime.

on a different note, i went to get my hair cut yesterday. all for the purpose of taking a passport photo, which ultimately brings forth the reason for reasons: to update the photo on my passport. will be travelling in about 2 week's time to a distant continent altogether (well, the last i remembered, australia is indeed a continent). for fear that they'll not be able to recognise the young, innocent, vibrant me when i was in primary5, i'm left with no choice but to replace it with a more updated one. though honestly speaking, i'd rather keep the old one, for memory's sake. guess the custom check officers have no regard for sentimental value of personal belongings. anyhow, as i was getting my haircut in some barber shop at roxy square, i felt the need to include some opinions of mine as to how i wanted my hair to be cut. despite my years of inexperience, my gut was all i needed to hear( or feel actually) from. i wanted a part of my hair to be thinned more, as i thought that it'll be better that way. it was then that i remembered what a friend of mine had said. well, in this case, to ask a barber to cut your hair this way was like asking a chef if you could add cherries to his gourmet, cos' you thought it'll add flavour. sadly, just like chefs don't like people putting cherries in their concocted dishes, barbers likewise dislike having people having some input on how their hair should be cut.

in the end? i guess it turned out fine for me. after so many years of showing indifference ot your hairstyle, you get numb to other people's opinions.

just for your information, the only reason i've decided to blog after my hiatus was becos' i thought it's time to take my blog out of ICU. the hospital food is a killer. (haha, doubt anyone gets what i'm saying here)



Saturday, November 19, 2005 @ 11:07 PM
Trust&Betrayal

just finished watching Rurouni Kenshin: Reminiscence. left me in tears, or at least emotionally.

made me wonder how fortunate i'd be if i could taste love for once.
feel its texture.
savour its colour.
listen to its melody.

i wish i could experience love beyond its physical meaning. mere physical contact is too...simple. or maybe too shallow.

i wish i could feel the rich emotions that instills in a man the need to protect the one he loves.
to provide security for the insecure.
to give comfort.
to cherish.
love.

when will my time come?

or will it ever...



Thursday, November 17, 2005 @ 8:24 PM
05s101 bbq was a 'success'

had our first, real 05s101 gathering yesterday at pasir ris park. rain never did dampen our spirits: on the contrary, i thought it uplifted us. we felt more on abt getting the bbq up and started. of cos', with the help of a few umbrellas, couple of handphones and flashes of my camera to mimic the impending lightning, we managed to cook food. and taking into account it was pouring almost half the time we were cooking, we managed to successfully cooked up food that tasted how they should. i've been to bbqs in the past, and sometimes, things don't taste what they look like. frightening, i know.

i had to resort to calling mex twice before i could find my way to the bbq pit. the only clues i had were alot of noise and three umbrellas. actually, i thought the best clue was that they were the only ones bbqing while it rained, w/o any shelter nor light. also, our pit probably had the only long-sleeved guy hanging around. we buttered, blew, fanned, flipped, laughed, cried( cos' of the terrible smoke from the grill and losing a couple of hotdogs to the charcoal) our way through to a splendid dinner. i think this is the only bbq where i ate more than i paid for. heck, even alvin came, which was the surprise of the day honestly. after all tt, we gathered again to marshmallow by the grill. after tt, everyone was here and there and everywhere, jiji was wading in the water despite my warnings of possible sharks ( or at least crabs. stingrays?). in the end, i just joined him.

class spirit, finally. may not be so wholesome, but i think it's reasonable enough. a couple of ppl will be leaving us nxt year, sadly. sec sch never had this kinda nonsense, but i guess that's what differentiates jc from sec sch: reality.



Sunday, November 06, 2005 @ 10:46 PM
what to write

i've just deleted abt two paragraphs of words, basically on how 11 years of education have passed me by. my decision to erase them was based on the fact that i had no mood or inspiration to continue. whenever i blog, i feel that the only way for me to be true, is to not ponder too much about what i have/want to write. if i do so, then i'm trying hard to make whatever i say/write appealing for whoever reads it. hence, if i come to a point where i'm spending 5 min or so pondering over what i want/have to or can write, i'll refuse to continue, as i know i'm making an effort to make my entry more interesting, or at least tweaking here and there.

lately, i've not been having any mood to blog.

one possbile reason for my act might be because i've not been doing much to deserve any recognition here. either that or i simply refuse to degrade my entry to mindless blabbering of a day's occurrences. my blog deserves more.

moreover, i'm not the type who can think deeply over some aspect of life that philosophers for centuries have pondered over themselves. i refuse to keep myself busy with such matters of life.

neither am i the type who can cover up their very mundane life with colourful vocabulary and magically turn it into something paparrazis would love to get a scoop of.
basically, i lack the ability to bullshit beautifully.

so what kind of blogger am i then?
i've no idea myself.



@ 4:42 PM
GTO fever

KI MI GA HOSHII



Tuesday, November 01, 2005 @ 3:11 PM
if only it was just you

if only it was just you.