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Friday, October 20, 2006 @ 12:23 AM
simply put... so much can happen in a month. but im just here to say my piece. simply put, there are things i need to say as i dont have much time left. no ive not been dealt with a terminal illness, though i cant say that ns enlistment doesnt fall in the same category. anway, i've probably got two more months before my next phase in life as a 'man'. might as well make full use of it... i realised i made a very big mistake months ago. big enough that makes me wish i could tear up the space-time continuim just to make things right again. emotions can totally get the better of you, one moment you think you're doing the right thing and the next, you could possibly have committed a sin far worse than adultery (no im just kidding. really. but im speaking along those lines). thinking back i simply have no idea why i would done such. what did i do exactly? well i basically knifed the shit out of my supposedly good friend (i heard good friends are those who backstab you in the front), and to top it all off i did it for all the wrong reasons. i know my words/actions cant make up for lost time, but i hope it'll at least heal old wounds. guilt sure has a habit of making u feel bad at awkward times, but better late than never. no one has the right to judge another person, however i for one have violated that sacred right. now i can only help him with what he really wants, and i sure hope he gets his peace before ns. i rightfully admit i've not been the best of friends to you, or even a friend in that matter, but now of all times i hope you know what u want, and whatever it is, i'll back you up. if you dont know what u want, at least know what u dont want. i for one sure know what i dont want or need in tha matter, but as to what i really want in life, in school, in relationships...hhaaa, aint happening. it's two more weeks to the official start of a's. im chillin' fine alright, been watching the oc 1 lately. felt like just yesterday when i watching its season premiere on tv, though technically i was indeed watching on tv after my bro borrowed the complete dvd set of the 1st season. yer' know, if u havent watched the oc you should, just to remind of everything else that you're missing out in an ordinary teenage life: sex, booze, concerts, tons of making-out sessions and even more sex. okay, fret not, im watching just to hear all the dialouge that i missed the first time round. but u have gotta to check out this anna chic in there. i mean summer just too bitchy, and marissa is stick-thin. yep i absolutely dig that anna gal, she's witty smart hilarious forthcoming enthusiastic. but the best part? she's into comics...what other better combination could you want in a girl? anyway, totally fictional character and yet im fussing over her, how much more crazy do you need to be before you realise that a's is in 2 wks...hence i need to check out and check in with the books. |